Sometimes I wonder...
Am I really not beautiful enough to be liked by you? Is it my nose? My skin color? Or the way I wear my clothes? Or the way I just let my hair down? Do you really not like any of that?
Sometimes I wonder...
Why can't you see me from the good side? Why can't you just like me? Do you want me to change? Do want me to be better?
Because if that's the case..
I can't.
I can't change who I am. Because this will always be me. This is what I am. And this is what I will always be. I can change my wardrobe though, if you like. But as to my inner self, I'm sorry.
I'm sorry because I've struggled before to be what I am now. I've worked hard for it. I've been through a lot to be what I am today. I can't just change that over night.
I'm sorry if I can't change the way how I pity the street people. I'm sorry if I can't help but give them money or even my own food. I'm sorry if I have a soft spot for them. I'm sorry if I like dogs very much. I'm sorry if I talk to the animals in the streets and give them food. I'm sorry if I'm such a girl sometimes. I'm sorry that I'm afraid of spiders. I'm sorry if I get depressed easily. I'm sorry if I get too affected by little things. I'm sorry for being so emotional most of the time. I'm sorry for putting my full heart into things I have no certain. I'm sorry for always being there. I'm sorry if I irritate you so much. I'm sorry for trying to impress you.
I'm sorry for being me.
I'm sorry for loving you too much.
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